"We have nothing to fear but fear itself" -F.D.R

I turned off the lights shunning out what is and what is not. 

I lived in a world were being scared was of losing your phone 

instead of losing your life. 

I’ve seen, I’ve saw, I sought and I sung. 

I traveled a world a world of my unknowing a world were perfection 

was never obtained nor wanted too. 

I carved into my mind a fire that is ready to be lit. 

I felt as if the world has crumbled under its foolishness and descended into what is 

What is a question? What is an answer? Have I found what I have lost or something more? 

I wanted to grow so I shall grow.

I wanted to learn so I shall learn. 

I wanted to live so I lived. 

I wanted to begin a new so I rebuilt. 

We always have a choice to change to become something new. 

To live the life we never had. 

My heart is fighting for what is right.

A battle that cannot be won. 

It struggles to find a way.

To be free from those chains.

For it to be in a world were ideas

should not exist.

Where the mind cannot rest. 

We See but don’t See.

We Try but don’t Try.

We Learn but don’t Learn. 

We Live but we Forget.

This is the world we live in.  

Where seeing the light is not something that can be seen

but only to be known. 

I want to be a protector so I can protect the one’s I love. To be the next to step from the shadow and defend the helpless. I don’t want to be a hero if that is what you had to thought. I want to be the light within the shadow that will stand up when wrong has been to the right. 

The time that was spent on all this hate we should have used it more for love. All this time we should have moved on but we stayed in the past. We were an idol, a family, a treasure. Now this pain that is burdened onto my chest. How do I move on….how do I see through….how can I fix what I had done. I will live…I will look…I will rebuild that is what I will do. I will use my time left on earth to live, love, laugh and enjoy. Hate? Only a word. Anger? Only a feeling. Regret? Only a idea.  

Has there ever been a moment in which you were able to change something or have given the effort in which you were able to change it. Have you ever wished you had the opportunity to talk to that person one more time and tell them that you love them? How many opportunities did you pass up or throw away? What do you wish you could change to see that person one more time?  

I wish that I had done more for you to know that I loved you, for you to know that I never hated you. To know that I cried for you that day. I had so many chances that I never took and now all I do is regret…you were my family….my friend….my grandma….

Regrets

So much that i wish i had done different. To not have this pain on my shoulder. To have done something a little different. To not have hurt so many. This is my pain…..my regret….

Fighting a lost battle that cannot be won. Living a life that cannot be lived. Finding what cannot be found. A glass that cannot be broken. The words of a world that may or may not exist. A depth into the sea of nonsense of a mirror that has no reflection. What do you see? Is it what you thought or what you want?